I am committing to myself and my need to prove to myself that I can absolutely crush it this month. It’s been a long time since I felt that way. I struggle with consistency and …
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My promise to myself for October.
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Where in the Hell did you come from?
So often, I pause and think how in the hell did this happen to me? And you’re going to think it’s me complaining, being a hot head, or venting about something that frustrates me with you. And …
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Does that make me crazy?
I heat up. A ball in my gut, just a lumpy nothing-of-a-rock pushes on me from the inside and lights a spark. Heat, not the kind of warm heat when you step inside your well-lit …
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Simple steps for when you most need a lifeline.
So one of my favorite quotes when I’m not feeling well (and by not feeling well I mean I’m having a really hard time with suicidal ideation. I don’t actually want to die but it’s …
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Walking beside me in the dark.
I stand next to this twin of mine. This twin that looks as much like me as a sewer does a stream. It is bent over under the burden of an invisible weight. I hold …
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Arori (third installment)
That night was the most fantastic and terrifying thing I had ever seen. Raining golden, red, and amber sparklers is a wonderful image but terrible in actual reality. And as much as it scared me, …
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Juno’s fountain.
A lot of days I like to sit in the town square and eat my lunch—egg salad on crumbling white bread and grape juice usually. It’s quiet enough but just the right rhythm. I slide …
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Arori, the painter.
Heat seared towards me on the tails of red sparks. I was in the wrong end of a firework shot towards the ground rather than away from it. It felt like one of those moments you …
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Out to Sea.
You left. I still ache for the leaves that were on the ground the last time you danced across the lawn. I watched you go. I let you go, pledging to follow that old time …
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The painter.
I looked up. It was one of those nights where I had nowhere to go so I just picked a star in the sky and followed the streets I thought would get me closest to it, …
