I really haven’t been doing well and I have no idea where or to whom to go or what to do to be anything other than the person I inevitably am. I’ve been on a bit of a hiatus. I know I said I would post once every day this month for my BLOGtober OUTtober … Continue reading I really haven’t been doing well.
Maybe you should just show up to a family function with a shirt that says, I’m gonna make American gay again. Continue reading My ex came out 6 years into our 7 year relationship (interview III).
If you’re reading this on your phone, I suggest turning it on its side and reading it that way because it looks better and is much more palatable. I know I already posted the interview today but I saw this article and had to link to it because I have been seeing a lot of … Continue reading Suicidal thoughts, a faulty system, and societal shaming, oh my: why getting help is easier said than done.
This is a follow-up entry in a series of shorter entries to provide context. You can read the first one here. This is the second part of the interview. The first is here. Me: How did that change our relationship? Michael: I think it changed for the better. I think we realized we were meant … Continue reading Interview with my ex who came out 6 years into our relationship (part II).
I strongly recommend you read the blog post that goes before this (it’s actually split into two shorter entries. Click here to read the first one. Me (awkward because we’ve been on the phone for 30 minutes now): …hi. Michael: Sup. Me: This is the most awkward conversation I think we’ve ever had and … Continue reading My ex came out 6 years into our relationship (interview).
With that being said, he is a big reason I want to do OUTtober and Blogtober together this month. It made me realize that while I can get heated about things like same-sex marriage and other LGBTQ rights, I have a lot to learn and still have some subconscious biases that I need to continue to address. Because of this, I want to use this project as a learning opportunity and a means of becoming a better friend, peer, and community member. Continue reading My Blogtober Project.
There are things we could discuss and we both know that but our relationship has changed so radically, it doesn’t matter anymore. His identity has completely turned our relationship on its side and as much as it gave me a brutal mental whiplash in the beginning, it has helped wash away moments where we weren’t perfect and also made me realize while I was familiar with LGBTQ issues, it was never as personal and complicated for me as it was right after I found out. Continue reading Important context for upcoming interview with former significant other who came out 6 years into our relationship.
I am committing to myself and my need to prove to myself that I can absolutely crush it this month. It’s been a long time since I felt that way. I struggle with consistency and actually following through on goals and plans so I’ll need to work on that. If you have any tips for … Continue reading My promise to myself for October.
So often, I pause and think how in the hell did this happen to me? And you’re going to think it’s me complaining, being a hot head, or venting about something that frustrates me with you. And that would all be fair. I am a hot head and I do get really, really, really frustrated with you. … Continue reading Where in the Hell did you come from?
I heat up. A ball in my gut, just a lumpy nothing-of-a-rock pushes on me from the inside and lights a spark. Heat, not the kind of warm heat when you step inside your well-lit home on a cold winter day, but a shallow heat that will burn faintly and exhaust quickly, crawls to the … Continue reading Does that make me crazy?