Once upon a time…or a twitter post that turned into a blog entry.

Because how different are they sometimes, really?

Yesterday, I thought things were slowly turning around, like a semi backing up in an intersection–you know it’s been going the wrong way but at least now you have hopes of redirecting. I felt my depression letting go and washing off my skin like clumps of dirty sand. I ran 3 miles. They were rough but I ran them. I took a nice shower and I stretched. I forced myself to be social. I ate a decent meal instead of ice cream or nothing. I took a short nap and went to bed at a decent time. And then that semi that was backing up so beautifully, backed right into me, forcefully nudging me with its bumper. The red marks on my legs reacting to its strike warn me I’m about to get run over, but only partially, only enough to feel it and not be able to walk away but not enough to be worth recognizing. I hate it when depression fakes me into me, forcefully nudging me with its bumper. The red marks on my legs reacting to its strike warn me I’m about to get run over, but only partially, only enough to feel it and not be able to walk away but not enough to be worth recognizing. I hate it when depression fakes me out.

3 thoughts on “Once upon a time…or a twitter post that turned into a blog entry.

  1. Posting about mental illnesses is hard, I know, it took me weeks to write mine. But it’s almost releasing to write it out. Keep going! Make your feelings shine!

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    1. Oh you commented a second time. That’s awesome and thank you such much! I didn’t realize when I last replied to you on Twitter that you’d commented on this as well. Do you mind if I ask if you have your blog attached to your real name? I don’t and it makes me feel guilty sometimes for not being more authentic but I worry then that I wouldn’t be able to write in this blog.

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